He broke up with me over the phone after three months. I began to question why I’d previously experienced these emotions so severely, regardless of how long I’d been with the person who was breaking up with me, or how serious the relationship felt. Unlike the short-lived scenario that preceded it, this relationship spanned seven months and introduced me to the true anxieties of my romantic insecurity. Most of us will struggle with low self-esteem at some point in our lives. 10 Signs of Borderline Personality Disorder Exposure | Effect of BPD on Partners - Duration: 14:12. When your self-image and your view of the world go to extremes, this kind of distorted thinking could indicate a mental health disorder known as borderline personality disorder (BPD).Individuals with BPD experience patterns of false perceptions about themselves and others, extreme emotions, frequent mood swings and impulsive behavior that interfere with daily functioning. I declined, uncomfortable with that suggestion, and wasn’t told until two years later that it had been a cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT) technique, intended to draw a reaction from me.Unfortunately for my mental health, my refusal of that CBT technique-related offer actually led my therapist away from the diagnosis—and explanation into my relationship patterns—that I’ve only recently arrived at. We only dated for three months and broke up this past February, but he sat with me for hours while I cycled through immediate breakup symptoms and the usual feelings of abandonment and loneliness were alleviated by his support. 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